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Mature?

Finally, I posted again after slacking off for so long

(post ini pake bahasa inggris, karena gue bener-bener butuh saran).

I'm confused, really confused and uh, in Indonesia, we call it a "dilema" or maybe "galau" *shrug* so, I'll just tell you what my problem is.

I have a friend, let's just call her, Sera, so, yeah, Sera is a nice girl, funny, kind, supportive, honest, loyal and such, but lately, I don't feel comfortable to hang around with her.

You see, Sera is my best friend, together with Reina and Lucia, they're my best friend, and all of us used to eat together at lunch break. Well, we used to laugh, giggled, chatting, ~~even gossiping~~ and everyday feels so fun and warm.

But lately, Sera is always quiet. Me, Reina, and Lucia are in the same class while she's in a different class, she made friends with some girls in there and such. She used to come to me and the others, at the beginning of the 9th grade, she came with smile.

Now?

She came with a dull face, sometimes if we do something funny, she'll smile and cheered up, but lately, it's not working. You see, it feels like the only person who enjoyed it all was just me, Reina, and Lucia. Sometimes we just stayed quiet and said nothing to each other, not even Reina and Lucia.

The fun lunch break, has turned into the individually lunch break, and I'm totally sick of it. Also, yesterday, on the second break, she holds my hand and said, "You have to be more mature! Look, I've changed to be a little more mature, Reina has changed too, and Lucia has already mature, now, the most childish person here is you." she said that gently with a smile.

But it makes me sick.

Ugh, if being mature means no laughing at jokes or whatsoever, then I don't want to be Mature! for crying out loud! And at the same time.

It makes me sad.

I saw my fanfics, the kuroshitsuji, the naruto, it makes me wonder, "Am I too Otaku, to be a girl? Am I too childish to be a teenager? Am I too naive to be a junior high school student? Am I don't belong here?" I'm sad, I want to cry.

That word makes me feel like I'm a total geek, a total loser. The lowest from them. I feel like I'm a stupid geek.

But I love to make fanfics! I love to write stories, makes my own character than pour feelings to that characters, it's my world, it's my way.

A single word, and it makes me cry.

What should I do?

love,

Sayaka

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You've Trapped Me In Your Heart's Web | Chpt. 1(I) : Their Butler, At His House?!

19:30 | Label: Alois Trancy, Ciel Phantomhive, Kuroshitsuji, Love, Stories

Recap : Alois exclaimed at the party that Alice is his fiance, and then tells Alice that she have to stay in his house for two days, Sebastian seeks the truth of his word and found out that his words is true.

***

“Alright then, me, Sebastian, and the other will go home now.” Said Ciel, “Right.” Said Alice, “If there’s any trouble, just scream my name or Sebastian’s, I promise we’ll come here right away.” Said Ciel, “Alright.” Said Alice, smiling, “Be safe, okay, don’t let that Trancy do something strange to you.” Ciel warned, “Good grief, Ciel, you’re so protective.” Said Alice. Ciel rolled his eyes, “Okay now, take care, bye.” Said Ciel, “You don’t have to pick me up to here, Alois said he and Claude will accompany me to Phantomhive estate.” Said Alice, “Okay.” Said Ciel. “Goodbye, Oujo-Sama.” Said Sebastian, bowing, “Bye, Sebastian.” “Goodbye, Oujo-Sama! Take care!” said Meirin, Finny, and Bard, “Bye!” said Alice, waving her hand. Then, Sebastian and Ciel get into the carriage while Meirin, Finny, and Bard sit at the Cabby. “Bye!” said Alice and watches them until they’re disappeared from her view.

“Finally, they leave.” Said Alois, Alice sighed, “Come on now! Let’s go back to the mansion!” said Alois, grabbing her wrist and pull her towards the mansion. “Eh, wait—“ Alice whined, “Come on! I’ll show you your room, it’s right next to mine!” said Alois cheerfully.

Alois pulled her upstairs, and opened a door, then shove her inside that door. Alice watched that room in awe. “What do you think?” asked Alois, “It’s—It’s beautiful! So colorful! I like it!” Alice blurted out. “What was that?” Alois smirked, Alice looked away, “Shut up.” Alice said a bit embarrassed.

Alois just shrugged, “Anyway, that’s the door to the bathroom, that’s the door to the balcony, and your clothes are already inside the wardrobe.” Said Alois, “Alright.” Said Alice. Alois smiled, “It’s hard to find red and purple wallpaper, you know.” Said Alois, “What?” asked Alice, “Me and my servants prepared this, for you.” Explained Alois.

Alice’s eyes widened, “Really?” asked Alice, “Yep.” Said Alois. Alice than laughs, “Thank you so much, Alois! Thank you!” said Alice, grinning widely. Alois sees this, then turns away, blushing slightly. “No problem, anyway, if you need something, just call me, my room is next to yours, or you can call Claude or the others, just use that bell.” Said Alois, pointing a small bell on a table right next to the bed.

“Right.” Said Alice, “Well, that’s it then, goodnight.” Said Alois, waving his hand, “Goodnight, Alois, and thanks again.” Said Alice, smiling sincerely. Seeing this, Alois blushing slightly, again, but then grinned and closed the door behind him.

Alice grinned and throw her self to the bed, “Maybe, the Trancy family isn’t as bad as I think.” Said Alice and changed her clothes, then go to sleep.

~The next morning~

“Your Highness, it’s time to wake up.” Said Claude, “Ah, morning came too fast.” Said Alois stretching his body, “Is Alice has awake yet?” asked Alois, “Not yet, Your Highness.” Said Claude, “Well, tell the others to not wake her up, I’ll wake her up.” Said Alois, “Yes, Your Highness.” Said Claude, bowing again. “Put my breakfast in Alice’s room, Claude, I want to eat my breakfast with her.” Said Alois

Alois go to Alice’s room, he opened the door slowly then sit next to her, “Look, Claude, look at her face when she’s sleeping!” whispered Alois, Claude looked at Alice and then sighed. Alois grinned and moved closer to her face and then…

To Be Continued...

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9th grader nooow! :D

22:30 |

    Hem, jadi sekarang gue sudah kelas 9 =w= dan seperti yang kita tau, gue masuk ke sebuah ~~horrid~~ class bernama 9A. So so, I continue my life as usual. Tapi ada juga hal-hal yang bikin stress.
Guru matematika gue tiap pertemuan ngasih pr, dan prnya itu gak banget -_- terus kelas gue yang isinya anak-anak elite semua nggak mempermudah masalah. Dan di kelas 9 ini, yang belajarnya bahkan ga nyampe 1 tahun, gue harus bersiap-siap untuk mengikuti (sound effects : Jeng Jeng Jenggggg) UAN! Argh, gue jadi bingung sendiri mesti ngikut bimbel apa kagak, anak-anak lain pada ikut -_-
    Guru les privat gue yang gak bisa dikontak sama sekali juga bikin masalah tambah ribet, intinya, pembukaan kelas 9 ini gak enak =A= (kok malah jadi curcol?) Anyways.
Di kelas 9 ini gue juga mencoba untuk merubah sikap, yah, mungkin jadi lebih ramah, lebih percaya diri, dan etc etc
    Ugh, gue harus bersabaaar >.<

~Sayaka-Chan

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School Days

10:42 | Label: curcol, people, school

    Erh, oke, gue bakal curcol sedikit soal school life gue yang sekarang. Anyways, yeah, I don't really like it in 9A. Why? karena isinya anak-anak pinter yang populer dan elite semua. Dan, yah, gue bukan termasuk orang-orang yang populer gitu, tapi juga bukan yang ditindas, dihindari ato gimana.
    The truth is, gue ngerasa gak enak disitu, dan disitu ada segeng cowok, sebut aja mereka..... Steve (anggap aja itu nama ketua gengnya) dan yah, si Steve ini anaknya boleh dibilang (maaf) kurangajar. Dan orang-orang yang kayak gitu yang bikin gue ngerasa gak enak, apalagi ini tempat duduknya belum dipisah, jadi masih bebas, aduh, udah nggak enak banget deh!
Pengeeen banget pindah! Argh, itu udah kayak 8c yang dulu, tapi anaknya yah.... rada lebih sombong. Aaaa gue rindu 8c TT_TT 9A itu bener-bener tempat yang pas banget buat menjatuhkan kepercayaan diri!
    Argh gak tau lagi deh mo nulis apaan TTATT

~Sayaka-Chan

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Sungha Jung -> Child Of Prodigy

00:52 | Label: Artists, Awesome, Inspiring People

Hah, dari tadi pagi bangun ampe jam 12:00 malem pas gue ngetik ini sakit perut gue gak ilang-ilang, bloody uncool! Anyways, gue udah mencoba tidur sejak sekitar.... 3 jam lalu, tapi gak ada hasilnya, kecuali kalo guling-guling sama denger lagu di HP bisa dibilang hasil -__-

Nah, daripada gue cuma cengo ky orang gila, gue memutuskan untuk nge-post tentang idola baru gue, presenting........ SUNGHA JUNG!!!! yep, Sungha Jung, cowok dari Korut yang terkenal banget di Youtube karena main gitar.

Profesional? Oh yes of course. Lahir tanggal 2 September 1996, dan sekarang udah jadi profesional acoustic finger-style guitarist. Dan dia terkenal karena Youtube seperti yang udah gue tulis tadi. Channel-nya dia udah dapet view lebih dari 14 juta, bayangin, lebih dari 14 juta orang nge-view account youtube lo! Amazing! Total view video-videonya udah ada lebih dari 290 juta view dan juga, lebih dari 443.000 subscribers. Bloody Awesome!

Sungha udah memenangkan banyak awards di Youtube, termasuk 6 buah "#1" awards. Awesome! Dan video Sungha yang mendapat paling banyak view adalah video dirinya yang memainkan theme song-nya "Pirates Of The Caribbean" sebanyak 19,533,801 views sampai tanggal 10 Juli 2011.

Sungha sendiri sudah menciptakan 18 lagu sejak Februari 2011, dua yang ditampilkan dalam debut albunya, "Perfect Blue", So Freaking Cool! Dan dia baru terjun ke dunia gitar sejak 3 tahun yang lalu, cool X3

Dan akhirnya, pada tanggal 1 Januari 2009, Lakewood menjadi sponsor untuk gitarnya Sungha secara resmi. Yah, gue emang gak begitu ngerti soal dunia gitar gitu, jujur aja, gue lebih seneng denger daripada mainin. Anyways, Sungha juga rajin loh! Rutinitas latihan gitarnya sehari-hari berlangsung satu sampai 2 jam kalau dia lagi sekolah, tapi kalau libur sekolah, dia berlatih sampai 3 jam sehari. Cool and Diligent!

Dan di tahun 2011 ini, dia tampil di US bersama Trace Bundy, serta tur di Skandinavia dan Jepang, Sungha, will you come to Indonesia, please? :D

Anyways, berikut adalah penghargaan yang diperoleh Sungha dari Youtube :

#1 – Most Subscribed (All Time) – South Korea
#1 – Most Subscribed (All Time) – Musicians – South Korea
#1 – Most Viewed (This Week) – Musicians – South Korea
#1 – Most Viewed (This Month) – Musicians – South Korea
#1 – Most Viewed (All Time) – South Korea
#1 – Most Viewed (All Time) – Musicians – South Korea
#6 – Most Viewed (This Millenium) – South Korea
#6 – Most Viewed (This Month) – South Korea
#13 – Most Viewed (Today) – Musicians – Zimbabwe
#21 – Most Viewed (This Week) – Musicians
#25 – Most Subscribed (All Time) – Musicians
#54 – Most Viewed (All Time) – Musicians
#93 – Most Viewed (This Month) – Musicians
#93 – Most Viewed (This Month) - Philippines

And of course, the pictures of him X3 :

(that angelic-innocent smile! *melts)

And, this is his video :

Jason Mraz's I'm Yours, played by Sungha Jung

For more, search at : www.sunghajung.com

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9 A =_=

23:59 | Label: autis, curcol, school

     Demdemdemdemdem!!! Bloody hell! Freaking Sucks! Cih! -_- jadi kemaren pagi gue pergi ke sekolah gue buat liat pengumuman kelas, jeng jeng jeng jeng......
   Sebelumnya gue udah dapet bocoran kalo gue masuk ke sebuah kelas bernama 9A dan sekelas bareng 2 sobat gue, Allen sama Reina. Tapi gak sekelas sama sobat gue yang paling deket, Sera. -__-
   Dan.... gue berangkat ke sekolah, pengumuman kelas dipasang di deket pintu masuk gedung sekolah, papannya cuma sebiji, cuman disitu ditempelin banyak kertas isinya daftar murid, di kelas mana, dan siapa wali kelasnya.
     Dan...
   ...........
     ............
   .............
     Gue beneran masuk ke 9A, dan gue rasa gue sudah memecahkan rekor 9 tahun berturut-turut dapet nomor urut 1 -__-'' apes banget deh. Dan itu kelas isinya anak-anak pinter semua, paling rangking 10 besar, 5 besar, tolong deh =A=.
     Wali kelasnya untung baik, bukan yang killer, adoh, dan disitu gue juga sekelas sama yah, begitulah, adooh gimana nasib gue -__-''


     Anyways I guess today's rant is enough =A= babay

~Sayaka_chan

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You've Trapped Me In Your Heart's Web | Chpt. 1(h) : Their Butler, After Dance

09:19 | Label: Alois Trancy, Ciel Phantomhive, Kuroshitsuji, Love, Stories

Recap : Alice and Alois are dancing in the dance floor (sounded like a song lol!)

***

“Look at both Alice and Alois! Their dance is fast but… but beautiful!” exclaimed Soma admiringly, “I never knew that Oujo-Sama can dance that great!” said Finny, “The others also watching them and stopped dancing.” Said Bard.

Alice is trying to mach Alois’s speed, the music become faster and faster, “Give up?” asked Alois, “You wish.” Alice hissed. “Alright then.” Said Alois and dance faster. Alice started to feeling dizzy, “Tired?” asked Alois, “No way.” “Aw, come on, if you feel dizzy, just say, I won’t bite.” Teased Alois, “Yeah you won’t bite, but you will bite my pride.” Alice retorted.

Alois smirked at Alice, who felt dizzier and dizzier in every step, “Say it, Alice.” Whispered Alois, “N-no.” she can’t hold her stutters, her head is spinning, and her foot hurts, “Come on, you know you wanted to stop.” “No way, I’m going to lose to someone like you!” “Sheesh, you’re stubborn!” Alice can’t take it anymore but she refuses to giving up.

Finally, Alois stopped the dancing by bending his body to Alice, who bending her body in the opposite direction, both panting (alois : up alice : down). The others look at them in awe and then clap their hands. “Wow, their great!” cried Soma, “A-amazing!” cried Paula, “C-cool!” cried Finny and the others. “Tcheh, show off.” Ciel snorted.

“See, the crowds loved it?” smirked Alois, “Feh, shut up.” Alice looked away, a bit embarrassed. Alois’s smirk grew wider, “Want to rest?” asked Alois, “Yes.” Answered Alice, “Alright.” Said Alois and let Alice go.

Alice stomped into where Ciel and the other’s are. “I can’t believe that spoiled kid!” Alice whined, “The fact is, he’s 14 and you’re 13.” Said Sebastian, “Yes, Sebastian, thank you for reminding me.” Said Alice sarcastically, “Why are you whining? He seemed nice.” Said Agni, “Nice? Compared to what?” Alice muttered. “Now, now, at least he’s more lively.” Said Soma, Ciel shot him a glare, “No offense, Ciel.” Said Soma rubbing his neck.

“I need to talk to you two.” Said Alice to Ciel and Sebastian, “Let’s go that way.” Said Ciel pointing on a random corner. They walked to that corner, “So what is it?” asked Ciel, “Alois said, that her mother’s will is, after I agree being his fiancé, I’ll have to stay in here for 2 days.” Said Alice. “What the—two days?” Ciel looks irritated, “2 days? What for?” asked Sebastian, “I don’t know.” Alice mumbled.

Sebastian sighed, “That Trancy had given us nothing but trouble.” Said Ciel, “I know.” Alice agreed, “What should I do? Should I stay in here or not?” asked Alice, “Sebastian, go check if that’s true, and do it quickly.” Said Ciel, “Yes, My Lord.” Said Sebastian bowing. “I promise, before this party finished, we’ll know if that’s true or not.” Said Ciel, Alice nodded. “Come on, let’s go to the others.” Said Ciel. “Alright.” Said Alice.

Alice is sitting in the chair while everyone else dances. Huffing her gaze shifted to a certain blonde with crystal blue eyes. The blonde is talking kindly with some guests, his smile looked so sincere, so warm, ‘Feh, act.’ Said Alice in her head. Alois notice her gaze and smirked, Alice frowns and looked away.

~Alois’s POV~

I noticed that Alice look at me, I smirked and she looked away, my smirk grew wider, ‘Shiromya Alice, I definitely, going to make you mine.’ I said that word in my head as I watched her.

~Original POV~

“That spoiled person.” Alice muttered and eats Agni’s curry bread, “Oujo-Sama, why don’t you join the others and dance?” asked Meirin, “My leg hurts because of the previous dance.” Alice muttered, “Oujo-Sama and Earl Trancy does dance so fast.” Said Meirin, “I want to go home.” Said Alice.

“Oujo-Sama.” Called Sebastian, Ciel is next to him, it seems that the dance has over, “I see.” Said Alice, “Excuse me for a second, Meirin.” Said Alice, “Yes, Oujo-Sama.” Said Meirin.

“Okay, what is it?” asked Alice, “About Alois mother’s will.” Said Ciel, “And?” asked Alice, “From the information I got,” Sebastian started, “It is true.” Said Sebastian, finishing his sentences. “What?” Alice’s jaw dropped, “It’s true?” asked Ciel, “Yes, Bocchan.” Said Sebastian, “It seems that I have no choice but to spend 2 days here.” Said Alice, defeated.

“Yeah.” Said Ciel, “Alright then, thank you for your work, Sebastian.” Said Alice, “No problem, Oujo-Sama, it is only natural for the Servants of the Phantomhive can do this kind of stuff.” Said Sebastian. “Mhm.” Alice agreed.

To Be Continued…

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You've Trapped Me In Your Heart's Web | Chpt. 1(I) : Their Butler, At His House?!

9th grader nooow! :D

School Days

Sungha Jung -> Child Of Prodigy

9 A =_=

You've Trapped Me In Your Heart's Web | Chpt. 1(h) : Their Butler, After Dance